Saturday, 10 January 2026

100 songs i liked in 2025

 nobody asked and yet you shall receive — 100 songs i loved in 2025

aside from wrapped playlists or last.fm stats. because sure, i did listen frank iero's cover of fade into you by mazzie star 72 times in one sitting and catapulted it fifty spaces up in the ranks. yes i did loop ls dunes paper tigers for six hours. often. thats just a regular wednesday. i dont need a fancy graphic to tell my instagram story that. but what does that actually say about my likes in the broad picture.

truth is, those statistics dont often reflect your actual favourite songs of the year, or the most impactful.

if you discover a banger in january, it has much more time to be listened to than songs you discover later in the year. my boy markus ivi didnt even get the chance to appear in the spotify statistics bc i discovered his music in november and november doesnt count as 2025 anymore according to spotify. sometimes you love songs but dont listen to them as often as to others because you have someone sitting next to you in the car that you know would rather climb out through the window than listen to whatever you are about to put on.

and sometimes you just listen to bangers less than you could because i dont know. we all have different ways of life. so anyways. here's my personal 100 favourite songs that i didnt necessarily discover in 2025, but were my favourites to listen to that year. in order of alphabet and i am leaving out frank, ls dunes, mcr and joker out bc their whole discography would be here, i dont need to type that all out for you.

lets go

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Basshunter - All I Ever Wanted

Bess - Kyyneleet sateessa

Bess - Sammumaton

Bijelo Dugme - Hajdemo u planine 

Black Cats, Kamyar - Nemikhamet

Blackwater Holylight - Delusional

Blackwater Holylight - Motorcycle

Blackwater Holylight - Willow

Bloodred Hourglass - Drag Me the Rain

Bloodred Hourglass - The Crown Is Permanent

Bloodred Hourglass - Royally Done

Bloodred Hourglass - We Should Be Buried Like This

Brutalismus 3000 - Satan Was A Babyboomer

Business City - Seppo Räty Berghainissa

Business City - Päivä pulkassa

Brano Likic - Nemoj Meni Branit Moja Nano

Calabrese - He Who Flees The Light

Calabrese - Your Ghost

Calin - Hannah Montana VIP

Cheek - Jippikayjei

Christian Steiffen - Eine Flasche Bier

Christian Steiffen - Ich fühl' mich Disco

Creepmouse - I Watch You Go

Creed - One Last Breath

CYBER, Hatari - HLAUPTU

DAM - Dathiruni

Dubioza Kolektiv - Kažu

Eivør - Trøllabundin (Live in Tórshavn)

Esti Koronél - Boldogság, Te Kurva

Evelyn Frances - I Could Feel You

Evelyn Frances - Seed

Gently Tender - Avez-vous déjà

Go_A - Dumala

Go_A - Krip

Grimes - 4ÆM

Hanna Nutti - Áphi

Hatari - X

Helene Fischer, Florian Silbereisen - Schau mal herein

HELLEN - La musica che batte

Her's - What Once Was

Horkýže Slíže - Vlak

IAMX - I Come With Knives

Ikkimel - BÖSER JUNGE

Joey Risdon - Hardcore Power

Kawasaki 3P - Ni Da Ni Ne

Kermit - Rainbow Connection

Liquido - Narcotic

lúpína - við tvö

lúpína - ástarbréf

Man on the Moon, Maraljingoo - Би Хүсээгүй

Man on the Moon, Roockie - Өөрийнхөөрөө

Markus IVI - Czas

Markus IVI - Piękno

Markus IVI - Ptaki

Max Vincent - Beogradska Devojka

Meredith Brooks - Bitch 

Mihaela Marinova - Samo teb

Mokoma - Kuollut, kuolleempi, kuollein

Mokoma - Kuu saa valtansa auringolta

Mokoma - Toinen ihminen

Münchner Freiheit - Ohne Dich

Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

Okayalex - Shameless

Otyken - Alaska

Otyken, Ummet Ozcan - Altay

Otyken - Legend

Placebo - Every You, Every Me

Plavi Orkestar - Kaja

Plavi Orkestar - Ljubi se istok i zapad

Plavi Orkestar - Lovac I Košuta

Reaper - Robuste Maschine

REMOTE BONDAGE - so gerne hässlich

Saint Levant - DALOONA

Saint Levant - KALAMANTINA / كلمناينا

Saint Levant - NARI NARI NARI / ناري ناري ناري

Saint Levant - WAZIRA / وزيرة

Saint Motel - At Least I Have Nothing

Scooter, Harris & Ford - God Save The Rave

Scooter - How Much Is The Fish?

Scooter - Nessaja

She Past Away - Durdu Dünya

Sini Sabotage - Kuori mua

Sleater-Kinney - Good Things

Tapani Kansa - Kalajoen Hiekat

Tipless - Bad Dog

Toše Proeski - Nesanica

the GazettE - Hyena

The Hollies - The Air That I Breathe

The Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack - The Phantom of the Opera

The Warning - DISCIPLE

The Warning - Six Feet Deep

The Who - Pinball Wizard

Ursus Factory - Luo/vuta

Ursus Factory - Mitä luolassa on

Ursus Factory - Pakko mennä keskuseen

Ursus Factory - Perintö

Videosex - Detektivska priča 

Wir sind Helden - Denkmal

Wizo - Seegurke 


okay ill admit i halfway gave up on alphabetical order dont sue

anyways, take these as recommendations, broaden your musical horizons etc etc come back in 6 hours 14 minutes and tell me your findings <3

Friday, 9 January 2026

thoughts on snow

snow is something so regular and boring to people here and sometimes even tedious and i get it to a point, i guess. i dont want to say that when you grow up with something being a regular part of your life, you're taking it for granted or anything, but it does kind of feel mundane probably? it snows here every winter, thats just how it goes.


i guess it hits me so hard because i also grew up with it snowing every winter, enough that we could go sledding on the hill by the graveyard and to build snowmen during kindergarten playtime. i used to drag my brother on a sled across the church yard pretending to be a husky.

but that was in the 90s, and early 00s. the last time that i remember "proper" snow in my home city was 2012 when we had a prper snowstorm but before that it had already been drastically declining with every year. there is another snow storm hitting that city now, but thats far from the norm – the most we would get in the last ten years is a day or two of a few flakes drifting down from the sky and instantly disintegrating when they hit the asphalt. its fucking depressing. it didnt use to be like this.

and now i live here, i get proper winters again and snow every year and i am very happy about that, but i wish my first reaction to the snow would be happiness and not dread? because the people who have lived here for their whole lives also tell me "it didnt use to be like this", the snow used to hit much earlier and then stay, for months at a time. yes, there is snow, but for a week or two at a time and then it melts and comes back a while later.

and every time it snows here my reaction is yay snow! and then almost instantly oh god, the same thing is going to happen here. in ten, maybe twenty years, the snow will be almost gone.


its scary to be in the generation to see climate change happen in real time and its so, so fucking depressing and everywhere i notice it makes me want to scream and cry and throw up, i hate that there is this type of drastic change happening, irreversible, and all i can do is stand and watch. not in a "wow im such an environmentally conscious person and the only person on planet earth to #care" or whatever but its so heartbreaking and everything seems so hopeless when i think about it for just a second too long. everything i do feels pointless.

well. ive had many conversations with my therapist about this. hate to say it, but that shit actually works sometimes.

"allow yourself five minutes to be upset about it, cry or scream if you want to, stomp your feet or hit the wall – and then move on" is a skill she's practiced with me for so many other things but it also works surprisingly well in this case. if i get all of the misery out first, i can then close that box until the next time and focus on appreciating what is actually in front of me and allow myself to be happy about it. yay! snow! ♡

"if you cant change anything about it, you can take on the role of someone who remembers" because of course someone has to. not just me, its not like im the only one to remember fucking snow, but i do feel like the more people make a conscious effort to take in every detail and memorise it, the bigger the impact. if we cant save this planet, we can still love it for every second we are allowed to be here and keep the memories. we at least owe her that, right? not to get all spiritual.

theres this childrens book about mice preparing for winter where all the mice collect grains and berries and straw, but this one mouse focusses all his attention on taking in the view and soaking up the sun and when winter hits, he keeps everyone warm with the stories of summer. i think about that book often, it used to be one of my favourites as a kid. i think we are already doing something similar for future generations by taking pictures and videos that will be able to show the people a hundred years from now what nature used to look like, but it never hurts to preserve the emotional memories as well i suppose. its a nice thought at least.

so maybe its stupid and extremely naïve, but when i look at nature now, whether its the snow, the trees, the ocean, i make a conscious effort to take in the details and try to make little mental pictures of the scenery in my mind. and think really really hard i love you and hope that there is something about nature that is sentient enough to feel it.

i love you, i love you, i love you.

100 songs i liked in 2025

 nobody asked and yet you shall receive — 100 songs i loved in 2025 aside from wrapped playlists or last.fm stats. because sure, i did liste...