Friday, 6 February 2026

the lovers, the dreamers and me

something i love doing that brings me great joy and satisfaction is learning songs by heart. and by that i dont mean "i know all the lyrics" or "i could get a perfect score at karaoke", no, that is not enough.

i mean knowing it completely, down to the last little detail and being able to play it in my head so perfectly that it is indistinguishable from the recorded version. every note, every beat, every specific pronunciation of the lyrics.

i know its easy to say "well duh, of course i know my favourite songs by heart" but do you, really? its the same with counting seconds in your head, it takes practice and repetition to get the exact timing right and i find it is the same with music. often its very very close but just a second or a half second off, or the tone is just a little higher or lower than what is playing in my head. its close, but its not perfect. and i want perfect.

so the goal is that i can hit play on a song with the volume off and no matter at what points in the song i turn the volume up or down again, i am perfectly in sync with the song. basically.

with a lot of my absolute favourites i can do this because ive listened to them thousands of times so its not too hard to put in the work to perfect it, so sometimes i like to pick songs that i love but that i dont necessarily listen to as much. if you couldnt tell by the title, this weeks pick was "rainbow comnection" by kermit the frog of muppet fame.

i always loved the muppets, ive seen every muppet movie probably at least ten to fifteen times and theres a lot of songs in those movies that feel extremely nostalgic and comforting to me. rainbow connection is one that ive only semi recently listened to in the english version, since i grew up with the german one (and i actually like the english one better).

so the way i go about it is by listening to the song on repeat. preferably with singing along, i find that it is easier to perfect memorising the lyrical pitches that way, but i can also do it without singing. when i was working my hotel job and had an 8hr cleaning shift i would sometimes listen to the same song on repeat for the duration of my shift, several days in a row — big shoutout to ne bi smel live from arena stožice, mwah 🫶

im currently restocking our shops in different locations and one of them is an hour away, and i thought what a perfect opportunity to memorise another song, so for the hour drive there and the hour drive back, all i listened to in the car was rainbow connection. full volume, locked the fuck in on that song.

i struggled with some of the lyrics at the beginning, my main errors were with these parts:

"i know they're wrong, wait and see" – kept mishearing it as "i know they'll all wait and see" and messed up the timing between wrong & wait

"somebody thought of that" – kept putting longer focus on 'some' instead of 'body'

"is this the sweet sound / that calls the young sailors" – misheard it in several different ways, somehow struggled to remember the lyrics several loops in a row and then kept trying to turn the into for

well i did figure them all out in the end and every time i finally got a tricky part right it was soooo satisfying, i can not describe the adrenaline rush those moments give me without sounding like i should maybe not sitting behind the wheel going 80 while doing that. but hey. i was grinning the whole way home and had the time of my life and the next day i practiced turning the volume off and on again randomly and my synch was peeeeerfect so theres that. another song added to the eternal brain radio hall of fame 👌 

my favourite part of the song is the second bridge when "the lovers, the dreamers and me" goes into "all of us under its spell" but more powerful and melodic than the first time, i always get a little headrush from singing that part its so nice ♡

well. im driving to that location again tomorrow and will do a few more practice runs and ill probably ride this high for another week or two before picking the next song. i dont currently have any candidates, but im sure ill find a fun candidate when the time comes.

anyways, thank you kermie, you never fail me <3 

oh also the first song i did this with consciously was demolition lovers by mcr, i feel like thats not too surprising, but during the pandemic there was a time where there was only ever one person allowed to be at the office i worked at so often that was me and im not bragging when i say i didnt listen to anything other than that song for three full weeks. after which i realised i even get the silent bridge in the middle timed perfectly, completely subconsciously humming along and i thought oooooh this is something i can do ☝️ and then i started doing it on purpose with other songs.

Monday, 19 January 2026

ode to salad

being vegetarian will make a lot of people around you be really annoying about what you choose to eat or not eat because apparently no one around you has hobbies or whatever. also gets you fun comments such as "you're eating my food's food BWAHAHAHA" or "i could never just live off of rabbit food BWAHAHA" to which i just have to say. first of all whats your beef with rabbits huh? why are you bringing them into this and dissing their diet? and second of all rabbit food fucking rules. when i see a rabbit chow down on a fresh bundle of dandelion i am jealous. i wish i could truly appreciate the rabbit perspective experience of ripping up mouthfuls of fresh grass from the lawn.

anyways here's some salads in my camera roll that i made my mouth water from just looking at them enough that i had to take a picture to keep that moment forever.

most recent one, eaten yesterday. most of my salads dont have a whole lot of variation, just a heads up. why mess with perfection and all that, you know? also salad is crazy expensive here so i mostly keep it to the most basic ingredients, so here you get: mixed shredded salad, cucumber, tomato, mozzarella and halloumi cheese. 10/10 truly can never go wrong + halloumi is always a banger.

same basics, but slight variation. instead of halloumi, we have mozarella sticks instead, as well as feta cheese and some leftover cheddar that i chopped up. 10/10 this was also fantastic. reminds me i need to buy feta cheese tomorrow.. 

now honestly, there isnt much to say about this one. its down to the basics, we dont even have any fun toppings. but i did put it in a fancy soup bowl which was fun and definitely elevated the eating experience drastically. 7/10 for taste 13/10 for presentation.

another classic, feta cheese and broccoli on top. raw broccoli goes so incredibly hard, sometimes i just chop half a head up and snack it with some tzatziki or balsamic sauce. 10/10 havent eaten this in a while and probably should again hmm..

last variation of the basics and this one was so good and looked so satisfying even before the first bite that youre getting a second angle. pan roasted gnocchis and parmesan cheese on top. absolute game changer. the gnocchi were crispy on the outside, soft and chewy on the inside and its always so good to have something freshly warm on your crispy salad. 100/10 this was so unbelievably good i just wish the only store that sold gnocchi wasnt an hour away and also cost 50kr per bag.

salad base with roasted zucchini, sweet potato and paprika on top. didnt taste much like a salad but thats not always a bad thing i think? it wasnt as refreshing as a fresh crispy salad, but very hearty. 10/10 because even though i have mixed feeling about this, it was delicious and my sister made a vegan sour cream sauce for it that really made it so much better.

technically this is not a pure salad meal, but also there is two salads in this picture so that evens it out maybe. crushed veggie patties with some melted cheese, some basic side salad and some potato side salad. this very much was a "fuck its a sunday what do i even have in the house to eat" meal but it was a very satisfying eat. taking bits of the salads on the fork and then some of the patty mmmm yeah i should do that again. 10/10 good meal.

straight from the bag. well, washed. sometimes the best salad is just the salad itself in the realest sense. washed under some cold water and then just take a big bite. if youve never done this i dont know how to help you. i do recommend you do this over a sink though as there will be water dripping and running down your hand and arm. its a little animalistic. but few things slap as hard as a big bite of fresh salad when youre not just hungry but also very thirsty. 100/10 the rabbits know whats good.

honorary mention cucumber salad. ive met people in my life that didnt accept its position in the hall of fame of salad and others that just dont get the point. how i pity those who feel like they are above the humble cucumber salad.. "its just cucumber." actually its also vinegar and oil and water and salt and sugar. dont speak to my beloved in that tone. i had phases in my childhood where i begged my mom to let me eat this every day so she made big bowls of it to keep in the fridge for a few days so i could eat a portion every day with dinner but sometimes i would also sneak into the kitchen and steal a slice or two. 100/10 even better with radishes but who can afford those here lets be honest.


well. that is all the salads i could find in my camera roll for now but trust that 2026 will be another big year for salad. every year is a big year for salad in sophie world. <3

Saturday, 10 January 2026

100 songs i liked in 2025

 nobody asked and yet you shall receive — 100 songs i loved in 2025

aside from wrapped playlists or last.fm stats. because sure, i did listen frank iero's cover of fade into you by mazzie star 72 times in one sitting and catapulted it fifty spaces up in the ranks. yes i did loop ls dunes paper tigers for six hours. often. thats just a regular wednesday. i dont need a fancy graphic to tell my instagram story that. but what does that actually say about my likes in the broad picture.

truth is, those statistics dont often reflect your actual favourite songs of the year, or the most impactful.

if you discover a banger in january, it has much more time to be listened to than songs you discover later in the year. my boy markus ivi didnt even get the chance to appear in the spotify statistics bc i discovered his music in november and november doesnt count as 2025 anymore according to spotify. sometimes you love songs but dont listen to them as often as to others because you have someone sitting next to you in the car that you know would rather climb out through the window than listen to whatever you are about to put on.

and sometimes you just listen to bangers less than you could because i dont know. we all have different ways of life. so anyways. here's my personal 100 favourite songs that i didnt necessarily discover in 2025, but were my favourites to listen to that year. in order of alphabet and i am leaving out frank, ls dunes, mcr and joker out bc their whole discography would be here, i dont need to type that all out for you.

lets go

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Basshunter - All I Ever Wanted

Bess - Kyyneleet sateessa

Bess - Sammumaton

Bijelo Dugme - Hajdemo u planine 

Black Cats, Kamyar - Nemikhamet

Blackwater Holylight - Delusional

Blackwater Holylight - Motorcycle

Blackwater Holylight - Willow

Bloodred Hourglass - Drag Me the Rain

Bloodred Hourglass - The Crown Is Permanent

Bloodred Hourglass - Royally Done

Bloodred Hourglass - We Should Be Buried Like This

Brutalismus 3000 - Satan Was A Babyboomer

Business City - Seppo Räty Berghainissa

Business City - Päivä pulkassa

Brano Likic - Nemoj Meni Branit Moja Nano

Calabrese - He Who Flees The Light

Calabrese - Your Ghost

Calin - Hannah Montana VIP

Cheek - Jippikayjei

Christian Steiffen - Eine Flasche Bier

Christian Steiffen - Ich fühl' mich Disco

Creepmouse - I Watch You Go

Creed - One Last Breath

CYBER, Hatari - HLAUPTU

DAM - Dathiruni

Dubioza Kolektiv - Kažu

Eivør - Trøllabundin (Live in Tórshavn)

Esti Koronél - Boldogság, Te Kurva

Evelyn Frances - I Could Feel You

Evelyn Frances - Seed

Gently Tender - Avez-vous déjà

Go_A - Dumala

Go_A - Krip

Grimes - 4ÆM

Hanna Nutti - Áphi

Hatari - X

Helene Fischer, Florian Silbereisen - Schau mal herein

HELLEN - La musica che batte

Her's - What Once Was

Horkýže Slíže - Vlak

IAMX - I Come With Knives

Ikkimel - BÖSER JUNGE

Joey Risdon - Hardcore Power

Kawasaki 3P - Ni Da Ni Ne

Kermit - Rainbow Connection

Liquido - Narcotic

lúpína - við tvö

lúpína - ástarbréf

Man on the Moon, Maraljingoo - Би Хүсээгүй

Man on the Moon, Roockie - Өөрийнхөөрөө

Markus IVI - Czas

Markus IVI - Piękno

Markus IVI - Ptaki

Max Vincent - Beogradska Devojka

Meredith Brooks - Bitch 

Mihaela Marinova - Samo teb

Mokoma - Kuollut, kuolleempi, kuollein

Mokoma - Kuu saa valtansa auringolta

Mokoma - Toinen ihminen

Münchner Freiheit - Ohne Dich

Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

Okayalex - Shameless

Otyken - Alaska

Otyken, Ummet Ozcan - Altay

Otyken - Legend

Placebo - Every You, Every Me

Plavi Orkestar - Kaja

Plavi Orkestar - Ljubi se istok i zapad

Plavi Orkestar - Lovac I Košuta

Reaper - Robuste Maschine

REMOTE BONDAGE - so gerne hässlich

Saint Levant - DALOONA

Saint Levant - KALAMANTINA / كلمناينا

Saint Levant - NARI NARI NARI / ناري ناري ناري

Saint Levant - WAZIRA / وزيرة

Saint Motel - At Least I Have Nothing

Scooter, Harris & Ford - God Save The Rave

Scooter - How Much Is The Fish?

Scooter - Nessaja

She Past Away - Durdu Dünya

Sini Sabotage - Kuori mua

Sleater-Kinney - Good Things

Tapani Kansa - Kalajoen Hiekat

Tipless - Bad Dog

Toše Proeski - Nesanica

the GazettE - Hyena

The Hollies - The Air That I Breathe

The Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack - The Phantom of the Opera

The Warning - DISCIPLE

The Warning - Six Feet Deep

The Who - Pinball Wizard

Ursus Factory - Luo/vuta

Ursus Factory - Mitä luolassa on

Ursus Factory - Pakko mennä keskuseen

Ursus Factory - Perintö

Videosex - Detektivska priča 

Wir sind Helden - Denkmal

Wizo - Seegurke 


okay ill admit i halfway gave up on alphabetical order dont sue

anyways, take these as recommendations, broaden your musical horizons etc etc come back in 6 hours 14 minutes and tell me your findings <3

Friday, 9 January 2026

thoughts on snow

snow is something so regular and boring to people here and sometimes even tedious and i get it to a point, i guess. i dont want to say that when you grow up with something being a regular part of your life, you're taking it for granted or anything, but it does kind of feel mundane probably? it snows here every winter, thats just how it goes.


i guess it hits me so hard because i also grew up with it snowing every winter, enough that we could go sledding on the hill by the graveyard and to build snowmen during kindergarten playtime. i used to drag my brother on a sled across the church yard pretending to be a husky.

but that was in the 90s, and early 00s. the last time that i remember "proper" snow in my home city was 2012 when we had a prper snowstorm but before that it had already been drastically declining with every year. there is another snow storm hitting that city now, but thats far from the norm – the most we would get in the last ten years is a day or two of a few flakes drifting down from the sky and instantly disintegrating when they hit the asphalt. its fucking depressing. it didnt use to be like this.

and now i live here, i get proper winters again and snow every year and i am very happy about that, but i wish my first reaction to the snow would be happiness and not dread? because the people who have lived here for their whole lives also tell me "it didnt use to be like this", the snow used to hit much earlier and then stay, for months at a time. yes, there is snow, but for a week or two at a time and then it melts and comes back a while later.

and every time it snows here my reaction is yay snow! and then almost instantly oh god, the same thing is going to happen here. in ten, maybe twenty years, the snow will be almost gone.


its scary to be in the generation to see climate change happen in real time and its so, so fucking depressing and everywhere i notice it makes me want to scream and cry and throw up, i hate that there is this type of drastic change happening, irreversible, and all i can do is stand and watch. not in a "wow im such an environmentally conscious person and the only person on planet earth to #care" or whatever but its so heartbreaking and everything seems so hopeless when i think about it for just a second too long. everything i do feels pointless.

well. ive had many conversations with my therapist about this. hate to say it, but that shit actually works sometimes.

"allow yourself five minutes to be upset about it, cry or scream if you want to, stomp your feet or hit the wall – and then move on" is a skill she's practiced with me for so many other things but it also works surprisingly well in this case. if i get all of the misery out first, i can then close that box until the next time and focus on appreciating what is actually in front of me and allow myself to be happy about it. yay! snow! ♡

"if you cant change anything about it, you can take on the role of someone who remembers" because of course someone has to. not just me, its not like im the only one to remember fucking snow, but i do feel like the more people make a conscious effort to take in every detail and memorise it, the bigger the impact. if we cant save this planet, we can still love it for every second we are allowed to be here and keep the memories. we at least owe her that, right? not to get all spiritual.

theres this childrens book about mice preparing for winter where all the mice collect grains and berries and straw, but this one mouse focusses all his attention on taking in the view and soaking up the sun and when winter hits, he keeps everyone warm with the stories of summer. i think about that book often, it used to be one of my favourites as a kid. i think we are already doing something similar for future generations by taking pictures and videos that will be able to show the people a hundred years from now what nature used to look like, but it never hurts to preserve the emotional memories as well i suppose. its a nice thought at least.

so maybe its stupid and extremely naïve, but when i look at nature now, whether its the snow, the trees, the ocean, i make a conscious effort to take in the details and try to make little mental pictures of the scenery in my mind. and think really really hard i love you and hope that there is something about nature that is sentient enough to feel it.

i love you, i love you, i love you.

the lovers, the dreamers and me

something i love doing that brings me great joy and satisfaction is learning songs by heart. and by that i dont mean "i know all the ly...